Are you confused? Are you the type of person who would wallow in your confusion and just swim in its spinning till it sucks you down to oblivion? or are you one who would try to at least find out where it all came from? I would like to think that I am the latter... Probably because I've been in that vortex several times... more than what I hoped for which is ... never... so in the many times that I have tried to hold on to something ... trying to make sense of whatever was happening I've realized that most of the answers to questions brought about by these confusing situations are really simple ... why am I fat? because you eat a lot ... why am I tired? because you haven't gotten any sleep... why am I lost? because you forgot to get directions... why do I feel empty? because you were never filled to begin with ...
But why the hell do we choose to stay in the middle of that confusion? and totally feeling miserable while in it ... beautiful, seemingly sane, perfectly beautiful women fall for men who are either married or is just a total ass of a person ... a grown up man able and capable to leave the house to create a life of his own stays in his parent's house scared of the world ... people who enter crappy relationships complaining all day of how they hate each other and are soooo fed up with all the nonsensical things they have to put up and yet still choose to be in that relationship .... are we all masochists or just tooo cowardly to do what we're supposed to do ... then again, under who's correct dogma? it's easy to say it's GOD's but at the end of the day, do we follow becuase we know its right or simply because we have to ....
Interestingly, the answers to these historically reocuring completely confusing questions has been historically, logically short - monosyllabic even - CHANGE, MOVE, DON'T, STOP, CUT ....
But the drama just has to come in ... emotional, psychological, most of the times egotistical complications that most of us are just too ready and accepting to let in ... these life spices that has to make everything so difficult... this is what soap operas, epic stories, novels and some bestsellers are made of .... in my writing class before, my instructor would tell me plot the humps that the main character should go through to keep him away from his "dream" or his goal... because that is what interests people ... your protagonist's journey IS the meat of your story ... because that's how your reader or your viewers will relate to these characters ... and therefore watch or read ... we are all just pragmatic voyeours that is concerned with how how some people would deal with their own personal deaths ... this is life's instruction manual ... one's drama may just as well be another one's salvation ...
Now then, if these complications which comprise much of life's drama is subjected to censorship, would this life be any fun at all ... NOW THAT obviously is truly it!
DRAMA is at the other end of the spectrum ... you can't have fun if you have not experienced being hampered, obstacled, or momentarily denied of FUN ... which again is more often than not confused with happiness ... Weirdly enough... the moment you get the need the "simplify" life, that's when you are actually complicating it ... confusing right?
To make it more understandable for me, a lot of times, I automatically shut down ... not even to process but to just feel it ... feel the confusion ... for just a few seconds ... then draw up my plan of action that usually is composed of super easy steps to simplify everything ... to make it more (as one of my colleagues would say) "palatable" - we all have to eat it up to digest it right?
So before i totally fall asleep... I've leave you with a quote that one of my chat mates sent me ...
"Sometimes you have to stop loving the most important person in your life
Not because the spark is gone, but because that person is unintentionally making you worthless"
Did you see the disconnect?
Then that's good ... you are now more confused than how you were before you read this article ..... enjoy the confusion ... but in a while ... you have to bounce back ... we always have to ... before you finally see the simplicity of it all ...
But why the hell do we choose to stay in the middle of that confusion? and totally feeling miserable while in it ... beautiful, seemingly sane, perfectly beautiful women fall for men who are either married or is just a total ass of a person ... a grown up man able and capable to leave the house to create a life of his own stays in his parent's house scared of the world ... people who enter crappy relationships complaining all day of how they hate each other and are soooo fed up with all the nonsensical things they have to put up and yet still choose to be in that relationship .... are we all masochists or just tooo cowardly to do what we're supposed to do ... then again, under who's correct dogma? it's easy to say it's GOD's but at the end of the day, do we follow becuase we know its right or simply because we have to ....
Interestingly, the answers to these historically reocuring completely confusing questions has been historically, logically short - monosyllabic even - CHANGE, MOVE, DON'T, STOP, CUT ....
But the drama just has to come in ... emotional, psychological, most of the times egotistical complications that most of us are just too ready and accepting to let in ... these life spices that has to make everything so difficult... this is what soap operas, epic stories, novels and some bestsellers are made of .... in my writing class before, my instructor would tell me plot the humps that the main character should go through to keep him away from his "dream" or his goal... because that is what interests people ... your protagonist's journey IS the meat of your story ... because that's how your reader or your viewers will relate to these characters ... and therefore watch or read ... we are all just pragmatic voyeours that is concerned with how how some people would deal with their own personal deaths ... this is life's instruction manual ... one's drama may just as well be another one's salvation ...
Now then, if these complications which comprise much of life's drama is subjected to censorship, would this life be any fun at all ... NOW THAT obviously is truly it!
DRAMA is at the other end of the spectrum ... you can't have fun if you have not experienced being hampered, obstacled, or momentarily denied of FUN ... which again is more often than not confused with happiness ... Weirdly enough... the moment you get the need the "simplify" life, that's when you are actually complicating it ... confusing right?
To make it more understandable for me, a lot of times, I automatically shut down ... not even to process but to just feel it ... feel the confusion ... for just a few seconds ... then draw up my plan of action that usually is composed of super easy steps to simplify everything ... to make it more (as one of my colleagues would say) "palatable" - we all have to eat it up to digest it right?
So before i totally fall asleep... I've leave you with a quote that one of my chat mates sent me ...
"Sometimes you have to stop loving the most important person in your life
Not because the spark is gone, but because that person is unintentionally making you worthless"
Did you see the disconnect?
Then that's good ... you are now more confused than how you were before you read this article ..... enjoy the confusion ... but in a while ... you have to bounce back ... we always have to ... before you finally see the simplicity of it all ...
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